Heart of Anxiety (Romano x Reader)

"I love you, (Name).” He whispers in her ear and then kisses her so gently, making her melt into his hold. “I love you too, Lovino.” (Name) leaned forward to him in attempt to let their lips meet again but she was shocked when her head suddenly falls downwards, awaking her from the sweet dream she was having.

"Huh?" she muffled.

(Name) felt softness on her face, it was only the pillow and she's in her bedroom—day dreaming.

"Argh, day dreaming again, stop it (Name)!” She slaps herself.

She sighed and gets up on her bed and suddenly her phone rings. (Name) grabbed her phone on her desk and the caller was, Lovino.

"Hey ragazza, are you busy today?" Lovino greeted.

"N-nope, I am very free today." (Name) replied.

"Well, I need a little help here at my house, could you come over?" He asked.

"Sure, I'll be there in a few minutes." Then (Name) hung up and headed to Lovino’s house.

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"So what's the big deal?"  (Name) smiles as she sat down on the couch.

He starts scratching the back of his head and blushing deeply.

"Well what?" She asked, slightly impatient.

"Okay okay. There’s a girl that I like, or I love, and I really want to tell her that… but it’s very hard to make a confession, you know… I mean to find the right words to say."

(Name)'s heart ached. "Confess? To a girl?"

"Yes, and I badly wanted to confess my feelings for her."

"Um actually, that’s more likely a guy talk. Maybe you should ask—"

"I mean you're a girl right? And I’m sure some boys have confessed to you before right?"

(Name) gave him a half-smile. "Actually no, I have no experience that a guy confesses to me."

Lovino gave her a confused look and she flinched a bit.

"Plus I’m a girl. I don’t know how a guy should confess his love to a girl.” She added.

"Look, (Name), all I want is that I wanted to know that ragazza’s likes and dislikes so she can like—"

"Wait, wait, wait! How can I know her likes and dislikes if I don't even know her?!"

"Did I say "her likes and dislikes?" Lovino chuckled in his rarest laugh. "Never mind about that. But, honestly (Name), I'm clueless to confessing!" He slumped down beside (Name) on the couch.

"Lovino..." (Name) starts. "If you really wanted to confess to her, give her something memorable. A thing she would never forget."

Lovino turns to (Name) and listened. "Let your heart speak, tell how the way you feel when you look at her, the way you feel about her. Make her feel special, never let go of her. Most important thing, be honest and faithful of how you feel for her."

"Wow." Lovino gasped. "Are you a love psychologist or something? You're really good at giving advices."

(Name) smiled at him but couldn't remove the ache in her heart.

"Hm...I suppose that's it." He muttered.

"Can I go now?" (Name) stands up but Lovino grabs her hand.

"Wait."

(Name) looked at Lovino, confusion clouding her. "What?"

"There's something I need to show to you." He said, when (Name) didn’t budge he exclaimed at her. "C'mon!"

Lovino drags (Name) upstairs to the door of his bedroom. "Wh-why are we here?" She asks.

"Close your eyes."

"What?!"

"Just close it!"

(Name) closed her eyes then Lovino opens the door, leading (Name) to the center of the room. "You can now open your eyes."

(Name) opened her eyes and looked in front of her, a hanging mobile with pictures of them together. She looked around and saw a framed portrait sketch of Lovino, her drawing of Lovino.

"Remember this?" Lovino showed her the talking tomato plush that (Name) gave to him last March, his birthday.

"Th-that's the talking mini tomato plush! You said that you lost it. B-but..."

"(Name), I treasured all of my gifts with you. Because I..." He stopped.

Is he...? She thought. “Because what?”

"Because I...." Lovino paused then, "because I love you!"

(Name) took a step backward but Lovino continued, "I love the way you look at me, your eyes so bright and (eye color). I love the way you make me so happy, and the ways you show you care. I love the way you touch me, it gives me chills to my spine. I love the way you call my name, it was the sweetest music I ever heard. I love the way you are, because it’s you!"

(Name) looked at Lovino with her teary eyes, so he really does. She thought.

Lovino wasn’t finished, “I decided before that I will forget about you, I even tried to ignore you and stop looking at you, because each time I look at you, I lose myself completely. I know it hurts you when I act cold toward you, but I thought it was the best way to forget and let go of my feelings, but I couldn't. I came to love you even more. I know I deserve to be hated, because I didn’t care for anybody and nobody did care for me also! Until, you came... (Name).”

He gasped for breath, “I will stay out of your life, and I will never try to get close to you. But you won’t be alone, because I know that you’ll find the one who deserves you more than I do; someone who will not hurt you the way I did. I’ll let you go (Name), but there’s one last thing I want you to know that I will forever and always love you.”

He finally stopped and heavy sigh escaped from his lips. His eyes we’re puffy red and was on the verge of tears. (Name) moved closer to Lovino and raised her hand. Lovino closed his eyes, expected for the slap.

 

But it didn’t happen.

 

(Name) slowly put her hand on the nape of his neck and pulled him close to hers. The other hand wrapped around his shoulder and pulled closer. Lovino opened his eyes; he expected a slap but a kiss? He puts his arms around hers. He wasn't expecting that but it was the most delicate kiss he ever had.

When (Name) pulled back, she gave him a half-smile. She can see that Lovino is shocked of what she did. "Actually, before you confessed..." She looked down. "...I have always loved you, but I..." (Name) bursts into tears.

Lovino wiped the tears off her face. "No need for explanation. As long as you love me, we're okay." He pulled (Name) to his chest, hugging her deeply while (Name) listens to the sweet heartbeats inside his chest.